Worries and prayer

We need to make a decision about my old car. My beloved hatchback! First gear won't "catch." And I'm feeling a bit paralyzed about what to do next -- it reminds me of people who "don't want to know" about their health, and so don't go to the doctor because they'd rather remain in denial. And I'm not ready to decide what to do next about this car: my old friend. Do I have it towed and price a new transmission? You can't really sell a car that won't go anywhere (except to a junkyard?). If we get it fixed, will I want to I drive for a while on the new transmission, or sell it right away?

A very generous parishioner has loaned me her extra car until we figure out the situation with this one. I am very grateful for her trust.

There are a number of worrying things on my mind lately: The car. Wall Street. An intense week at the church, in terms of some meetings I've had with people and a number of late nights.

And so, for many reasons, I find myself yearning to pray better. I tend to get wrapped up in "doing" when I'm stressed out, which is not good for me. I need some prayer and stillness to function at my best.

Yesterday, I had the chance to sit at a piano and play some hymns for a while. It was a really good mix of "doing" and praying. My fingers could move around, my brain could focus and problem-solve, but essentially, I was immersing myself in feelings and words that were pointing me back to God. I should do it more often.