Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Trip to Wisconsin

I took a mini-vacation to see my old friend, Monica. I needed a weekend away... I've been spending too much time in front of computers and mired in transition. It was good to actually be a transition and fly down the highway in a car, concretely in-between for three hours each way. And then to live suspended in someone else's apartment, life, and group of friends. A place where I was supposed to feel liminal.

Mostly, I truly do feel content and at peace in all this, but this has been a tough day. Probably because tonight I'm going to have a conversation with a local priest about a youth position at his church. I like what I've heard about this parish, but I really don't want to be a youth pastor. I hope this is not because I'm being a snob. I just don't feel called to it. I never really have. It's strange, I feel deeply sad! Deeply sad about a nice drive to Suburb Z to meet with Rector Bob, who is really a neat person, as I hear. But sad, all the same. We'll see, maybe God will surprise me - it's always possible.

I'll let you know how it goes.

In the meanwhile, here are some shots from Madison:

American Players Theater - outdoor Shakespeare, Ibsen, Chehkov, Wilde....
we saw Shaw's "Misalliance."
The view from the concessions courtyard, over the Wisconsin hills,
an hour outside of Madison.
Me, armed with blankets in case it got cold.
Me and Monica, in our seats!

And in her backyard, lounging... another important way to be liminal.


All will be well, and all will be well, and all manner of thing will be well.
(overquoted from Julian of Norwich, I know.)

8 comments:

  1. Anonymous8:19 PM

    Wisconsin (sniff sniff)...oh how I miss thee!
    And I miss thee! I'll give you a ringy dingy this week if you let me know which evening works best.
    You and Monica look cute as heck!

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  2. Hey Heidi,
    I think you could be a good youth pastor! It's a lot like Koinonia; probably attracts more sensitive kids with an interest in things spiritual. We've got a great Youth Ministry Institute out here, and we're light on the Anglicans. And you can hang out with Hillary too, so there you go.
    Enjoy the vacation. Talk to you soon! Jon

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  3. Anonymous3:15 PM

    Rock on, 'Sconsin! Can I get a "Forward"? Forward!

    (Yeah, that's the state motto, presumably left over from Wisconsin's more progressive days. And yeah, that's me being a dork.)

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  4. All this Wisconsin-love! Well-deserved, certainly. And if you all are dorks, then I'm sure I must be, too.

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  5. Oh, Jon. You're so supportive. But I just don't think I want to be a youth pastor.

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  6. I blogged about YM. It's not directed at you, just something I've been thinking about. But I am curious why you feel so strongly about not wanting to be a youth pastor. Is it being in a "youth ghetto," working with youth, something else?

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  7. Anonymous10:40 AM

    Oh, Girl, I totally hear you about not feeling called to be a Youth Pastor. Under duress of extreme guilt, I worked with the youth in my church (as it was then) my first year out of college, and I--kid you not--I made two girls cry.

    B'-boom-boom. Good night everybody, you've been great! ;)

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  8. We all love you Heidi!?!?!

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